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Insane Films: Video Journal 12.21.07


My what’s gone sour.

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Being faced with such a graphic memory like that makes sense about how your trips to Florida (esp. this time of year) mean you end up reliving what happened. Most of the events surrounding Juan’s death occurred in that Florida bubble.

I think this makes it harder for you. If these were things that you saw as part of your everyday life, or would never had to see again, it would probably be easier to deal with.

I enjoyed the rollercoaster ride at the end.

I hope making this did you some good.

I hate when people think that podcasting/video-casting has to follow some format — especially when it is a format that is very much like conventional radio or TV. That’s like saying you can use a hammer for only one size of nail. What you do, Richard, is use the medium do achieve different things — you use your hammer for pounding all kinds of nails, staples and even busting shit up. That’s what I love about your work.

Today you may have used it as therapy, a window into your soul or maybe a tool for us to find something out about ourselves. I’m not sure if your methods will lead you to great riches but I do know that your methods keep me watching and listening.

I don’t know how you feel – I’ve never lost a spouse or significant other – but at the same time, with this, I can empathize with you or at least with others whom have experienced similar experiences.

I don’t know if I’m making much sense but, nonetheless, I’m glad you’re doing what you’re doing.

🙁 that was very touching….
I hope she gets the shower fixed in the other room… cause that is just horrible, tho I think things like this get a little easier with some time. O, and it might help turd clean the floor some moe.
The rollercosturd ride was cute… that lil girl kinda looks like you, she be cutes. Not in a gross way ya cunt.
Thanks for postin this…

Thank you for sharing this, it was very touching. I hope that it was a relief getting it off your chest. I don’t know what else to say, so forgive me if that is trite. I truly appreciate everything you put out there for us, both Insane Films and Yeast Radio, you have a gift, I only wish I had something to give back to you.

Thanks for posting this video. My partner and I have HIV and related to your video, the posiblity of having to deal with the other not being there (although things are relatively well with us): I can certainly relate. While we as viewer may be silent most of the time, I want you to know I share your feelings and hope time gives you more and more peace. God bless. Keep up the good work.



The honesty and vulnerability in this video is amazing and inspiring. I know that probably reads like a line of crass crap. But, that’s how I feel. Thanks for posting it.

i really enjoyed this. its startling to me how you deal with your pain or whatever you want to call it. you always seem so calm. i have a “similar” experience and i deal with it mostly in anger.

Wow, really touching. I got a knot in my stomach and my eyes started to well up when you showed us the photo of you and Juan on the boat and were completely silent. It was pretty intense. Can’t even imagine what you’re going through.

Love ya’

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